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I don't really have a title for this...I don't even know that i should be putting this all down. Not so much for fear that Sam might perchance read this, but more for the fact, that it makes my feelings and thoughts on the matter real. Like REALY real. I want to believe that it's just stress, but that excuse is getting lame. Sam, I love him dearly..but he really hurts my feelings sometimes. I don't know how to talk to him....I feel like every time I try, I just make things worse, and I am NOT trying to rehash anything, and it always comes across that way to him. He always says that he is sorry, But I feel like there comes a point when Sorry becomes just another word. It loses it's meaning...does that make sense??  I am not looking for a fight, I am just looking for some consideration...I know that the same is expected of me, and I don't always follow thru. I honestly think that this is something that We both need to work on....guess i will just have to focus on me, and hope for the best from there!