I am realizing that for someone who loves to argue, I don't understand the organizational structure of a legitimate argument. Critical Thinking is NOT my jam... This class is giving me the most anxiety I have ever had in a class this far. I am questioning my desire to return to school, my ability to even finish. While this may not be about my bipolar.. This all plays into each other. I would love tot think that dealing with a mental illness would make me stronger and all that jazz, but honestly I feel like I am in the trenches all the time, with no escape. I struggle daily with simple tasks like getting through my day, and adding school in seems overwhelming right now. But, if I am honest I am afraid to take a break because I am afraid I will not go back ever. It would be so much easier to just run and hide under the covers and pretend to go on with life. But, I want this. I want to show my kids that I can overcome so that they know that they can as well. I need to keep going not just for me, but for them as well.
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